Great Week

I can't believe it's almost already another week. Last week after I got off work tuesday night Drew and I headed to Litchfield for the week with his family. We had sucha great time. I think it has been since our honeymoon since we actually took a vacation together. It was a much needed one and all we did was lie on the beach. Our house was right on the beach and it was GREAT! I can't wait to go back there again next year. I have never been to Litchfield before and it's only about 30min away from myrtle. Although, Drew and I don't like myrtle anyway!

I'm so excited because we get to go to Wild Dunes in charleston for our 2 year wedding anniversary in december. I'm so excited about it. I think were going to invite my parents to come for a couple of days. There not the traveling kindof people and have never even been to charleston.

We went to church today and taught our cute 3 year olds. Which come august were moving up with them and teaching 4 year olds. I'm very excited because there is such a difference just between the ages. Plus we love the kids and want another year with them.We then had lunch with our friends the Amerson's. God has truly blessed with some great friends from church. We pigged out on some pizza from Mellow Mushroom and it was really good and the first time we had been there.

Well, off to another week of work and school. ughhhh. I started a social commitee at work for my unit and this week were going to eat at City Range and I'm so excited because that is one of my fav's.

Everyone have a great week!!

Montana pics. Read below first!

Drew's Montana mission trip.

So Drew went on his first ever mission trip with a bunch of people from our church to Montana to help them build a church. This church I think he said had about 30 members and has had no preacher for 2 years. He even said another church that was near them had been saving up money for years to help build a new church until they heard about this church and there need to build. Well, this other church after saving up bunches of money gave all there money to this church. It was a great deal of money too but I think how wonderful that was and that church regained that money in a year. Blessing do come from helping people. Well, here are some pics from his time there. He didnt get to many of the actual church or an after pic. guys!!

Standing and on something. See all they got done! I'm so proud of all of them.

Yeah, he is looking rough withhis hairy face!

Here is what the church looked like when they go there.

These are pics just from the scenery and from Yellowstone National Park. He had such a great time and it's just so beautiful there. Look at all the animals and how close you could get to them. Look at the pics above!!

Week update

Well, this has been a week. I have been hubby less since Saturday. I just can't tell you how much I miss him! I hate him not being here. He went on a mission trip with some others from our church to Montana to help build a church. He has talked none stop about how pretty it is and how he wants to take me there.

Him and Brandon and two others were able to go to Yellowstone while they were there. This is Drew's second time there except this time it was daylight. He got to see all kinds of things and I will post pics when he comes back.

I decided I was going to be a big girl and stay by myself. Sooo Saturday I go to bed just Gizmo and me and get a phone call at 2am with some not nice things to say. It sounded like a drunk Mexican. Well, scared me to death and I just knew someone knew I was home by myself. So the rest of the week has been spend at my parents.. Ahhh, I hate not being in my home.

Today I drive to Columbia and stay the night because I have a wedding I'm in. I can't wait to come home tomorrow night and pick my hubby up. I know he is ready to come back home too.

Please pray for me as I drive to Columbia and Please pray for the guys as they come back from Montana and they get back safely.

Summer L. I think you have done such a great job being a single mom this week.

Thanks bunches

I just wanted to say thank you to all for their kind and uplifting words. Also, for the prayers!!!!! I just can't say how blessed we are. Sometimes it takes something traumatic to open you eyes. Well, mine our WIDE open. He definitely got my attention. Our family has been so great through this tough time. Also, especially our church friends I just can't thank them enough for all the prayers and encouraging words.

I think I received about 7 or 8 bundles of flowers from people. They were all so very pretty and really did make me feel better. Summer L. yours just now died so yours lasted a long time. I also had a friend make a pot of orange Gerber daisy and some purple flowers (Clemson colors). There so pretty but unfortunately I think I have manged to kill them :( I watered them and everything. Hmmmm.

Well, again thank you for everything and keeping us in your prayers. I will definitely let you all know when we do have more news but I will definitely be waiting a while this time.

xoxo

Sad Update

God works in mysterious ways and I do know that! It's just not always easy understanding why? Tuesday, Drew and I went for our regular 11 week doctor appt and they started with the doppler to find the heartbeat. Well, I had been trying for a week or so at work to try and find it myself with the help of a co-worker and could not find it. Well, we along with our doctor were not concerned since you don't always hear it until past 12 weeks. Our doctor, Dr.Ellis then was going to do an abdominal ultrasound and I was so excited to get another ultrasound because I did not think I would get one for another month or so. I knew something was wrong when I saw the look on her face. I could slightly see the screen and I did not see anything. She finally said that she was sorry and could not hear the heartbeat and saw and empty sac. My heart sank, and I just started crying. She stepped out of the room for minute and Drew and I just prayed that she was wrong. She came back to have a vaginal ultrasound and you could see the baby with no heartbeat. It was really hard for her to tell us I know. I never never ever thought it would have been as hard to handle as it was then. But not only that this happened at about 8 weeks. So I had been walking around for 3 1/2 weeks not knowing. That just made it even harder. I have never seen Drew so excited about something until I told him we were going to have baby and to see that taken away was devestating. There are no words to describe it. At the time I was unconsolable (sp?) but Drew just hugged me and prayed.

As hard as all of this was it still wasnt over quite yet. Obviously my body never expelled of this and so they had to take me to surgery and put me to sleep to have a D&C. I'm thankful that they did put me to sleep because if I had been awake it would have been awful.I was so nervous about doing this.My concern is about the future and what if this happens again.Or what if the procedure does something to me. We want a family so desperatly bad and to think about this happening again or what if something prohibits us from having kids. I had all these thoughts going through my head at one time. We come in at 840 am to have what we think will be great doctors visit and dont leave till 3 feeling empty. I just can't explain the feeling.

I know that this happened for a reason. God knew what he was doing when he took that precious angel to heaven. I know I will oneday see this little person but it still too hard to comprehend. You still can't help to think of if you did something wrong to contribute to this. I don't think I have ever been so cryful. I know this is normal but I don't know when It will stop. I never thought I could love something so much that I had never even met and then have it taken away from me. We left that hospital with one less of us and I just can't explain how that feels.

Drew has been such a great husband through all of this. Waiting on me hand and foot and just hugging me everytime I break down. It's been hard to sleep. And I'm tired I just cant stay asleep. Our family and friends have been so supportive. It's so nice to have such caring people in our lives. This is the hardest thing I have encoutered in my life so far and it will take sometime to get over it. We were so excited and getting ready to empty out our spare bedroom. I just thought I was just getting ready to get over the first trimester without any complications. This has been the hardest thing and I still need your prayers!!!! Thank you to all that have been so wonderful through this. Terri thank you so much for the flowers. I will call you soon!

I know December will be hard for me and thinking about the baby that was suppose to be here with us. Drew even bought me a pearl ring for Mothers Day and now I'm like I'm not a mom. I just look at the ring and it makes me sad. This my seem weird or silly but we really thought it was a girl and I think to help me cope with this we decided to give the baby a name. Cayliegh Grace!! Drew always kissed my belly and called her that.

I still need lots of prayers!!! So please pray for us to heal!! Actually, writing this helps me cope with this. We know there will be other babies and this happened for a reason but you still always wonder why me?

I need to vent!!

Ok. I'm going to strangle my dog. A few weeks ago when I went to wash our bed sheets What do I find? Pee stain!! When did this happen? I have no idea. It was dry. How did I not see it before this I dont know. So needless to say I was furious and washed our entire bedding!!! Well I wake up this morning to start washing clothes and went again to was our bed sheets and ahhhhh again. Dry pee stain. The only time he is on our bed is when were asleep at night. I dont just let him up there to roam and he can't jump on our bed when were gone. So does he just get up in the middle of the night and pee and go back to bed i dont know. What do I do?? I need help. My dog is 3 years old and still wants to pee!!!! I'm a pretty neat freak and this just kills me. So I stand there and yell at him like I'm sure he know what I'm talking about. So we are taking the carpet out in the future baby's room and now guess what I cant take it anymore that we just going to have to take the carpet out of our bedroon. Its sooo embarrasing. I dont even see it when he does it!!!! Its the only option though. I dont want my carpet to smell like pee!!

Any suggestions on how to get my dog not peeing in my house. I take him out all the time and he will continue to pee inside. I love him to death but its driving me crazy!!!